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unexciting epic finale lol
Friday, August 15th, 2025 07:58 pm(to avoid confusion, this post was written throughout 3 days)
first of all, id like to apologize to everyone that has ever started an affective relationship with me for my distance this and last week. you prolly know i have not been in the best school situation, and i have been forced into hyperfocus mode to a 50% of intensity. my most sincere apologies and if anything this may happen again between the end of october and the beiginnings of november. istg that was the only reason
well…i finally submitted my final projects. im pretty fucking underwhelmed, really
to say i didnt fulfill my expectations would be an euphemism. my proyects heavily reminded me of that horse meme where there’s a horse drawing that starts out as a masterpiece (og idea) then lowers its quality so that it looks decent (all the stuff i made before this week) and then it ends up as a fucking stick horse (the stuff i did this week). due to the lack of help, my own ambition and perfectionism and the fact i contributed on digging my own grave as i foolishly made 5 separate investigation documents with a bunch of badly written disorganized notes, 40 info links and i assumed that at least my group mates would read smth. BUT NO. i suppose pairing with the depressed lazy ahh girl who lowkey hates me for being bi and liking anime and complains about the fact her 2930402192019302193943894th degree cousin gave her a bad look for 0.0000000000000008 seconds when they were separated by the great chinese wall (istg i hate her sm) is better to be with the funny yet ABSOLUTELY LAZY KIDS. but what did i expected??? our shonen intensity levels are vastly different. i hope they die lol. im sure we’ll fail…BECAUSE WHO WOULDNT?!?!? I HAD TO PUT LITERAL 4 LINE CONCLUSIONS FOR THE LONG ASS ESSAY I DID AND I HAD TO PULL AN ABRUBT ENDING TO THE STORY OF THE OTHER WRITTEN PROJECT OF QUESTIONABLE QUALITY. and the 3d model didnt even look that goood…ughhhhh…i wanna fucking kill lol. but well, whatever happens happens, who cares after all, well i do but anyway, i wanna kms. we also start expositions tomorrow, since 11am…and like. why. just why. we already sent the links to our final proyects and our teachers ARE busy af checking everything why tf leave them with more shit to do ;-;.
by the time i resumed my writting, we had already gone through the first day of presentations, and frankly…it was ok. NAH NGL IT WASNT OK. well, we somehow managed to cram up some decent slides (MAYBE BC I HAD ALREADY MADE SOME BUT I WAS TOLD THEY WERE “USELESS”?!?!) which contained the main info and well they learned some stuff. the trick? they have no sense of what tf happened, for example:
(for some context, the proyect im talking abt rn is about how tf the moiseyev dance company, which is a famous russian ballet company, came to the us AND had a positive reception in the middle of the cold war. this happened bc of the lacy-zarubin thing which was smth to yk make some small diplomacy acts for fucking once and it was made with mostly good terms between the us and the urss)
- “the fact like the company was coming felt like a cultural invasion” BITCH?!?!? maybe ur referring to the fact the whole us went fucking ballistic during the red scares BUT THIS NEVER FELT LIKE A “CULTURAL INVASION”. what did this bitch not understand about the fact the moiseyev’s were awfully positive received and got the parasocial (positive) treament from everyone there…
- “the us used jazz as a way of diplomacy during the period where the exchange was active” while this is true, THE WAY HE SAID IT IMPLIED IT WAS ONLY USED THERE. which is not true, the us used jazz as a “heyy other countries we are NOT a bunch of heartless capitalist corporatives we have culture and we’re not racist :D” since waaayyyy longer than 1958 (year where the lacy-zarubin thing went active) so yeah pls inform yourself <3. and it was not only jazz, plenty of different artists participated on the exchange
oh well…at least i got to point out said failures in front of the teachers. a bit of personal satisfaction never comes wrong.
today, it was the last day of presentations. most of the class was left alone until 9am and jst ended up doing nothing, until some teachers came in and my class started to present. me and my group presented after recess, and im happy i managed to speak during most of the presentation, but sadly the teachers did notice the proyect was rushed but we were able to excuse ourselves, though im sure self pitying yourself during the exposition can only improve opinions to a certain point, but at least the teachers do know what we made. well yay is finally over :D, i’ll get my results next week.
first of all, id like to apologize to everyone that has ever started an affective relationship with me for my distance this and last week. you prolly know i have not been in the best school situation, and i have been forced into hyperfocus mode to a 50% of intensity. my most sincere apologies and if anything this may happen again between the end of october and the beiginnings of november. istg that was the only reason
well…i finally submitted my final projects. im pretty fucking underwhelmed, really
to say i didnt fulfill my expectations would be an euphemism. my proyects heavily reminded me of that horse meme where there’s a horse drawing that starts out as a masterpiece (og idea) then lowers its quality so that it looks decent (all the stuff i made before this week) and then it ends up as a fucking stick horse (the stuff i did this week). due to the lack of help, my own ambition and perfectionism and the fact i contributed on digging my own grave as i foolishly made 5 separate investigation documents with a bunch of badly written disorganized notes, 40 info links and i assumed that at least my group mates would read smth. BUT NO. i suppose pairing with the depressed lazy ahh girl who lowkey hates me for being bi and liking anime and complains about the fact her 2930402192019302193943894th degree cousin gave her a bad look for 0.0000000000000008 seconds when they were separated by the great chinese wall (istg i hate her sm) is better to be with the funny yet ABSOLUTELY LAZY KIDS. but what did i expected??? our shonen intensity levels are vastly different. i hope they die lol. im sure we’ll fail…BECAUSE WHO WOULDNT?!?!? I HAD TO PUT LITERAL 4 LINE CONCLUSIONS FOR THE LONG ASS ESSAY I DID AND I HAD TO PULL AN ABRUBT ENDING TO THE STORY OF THE OTHER WRITTEN PROJECT OF QUESTIONABLE QUALITY. and the 3d model didnt even look that goood…ughhhhh…i wanna fucking kill lol. but well, whatever happens happens, who cares after all, well i do but anyway, i wanna kms. we also start expositions tomorrow, since 11am…and like. why. just why. we already sent the links to our final proyects and our teachers ARE busy af checking everything why tf leave them with more shit to do ;-;.
by the time i resumed my writting, we had already gone through the first day of presentations, and frankly…it was ok. NAH NGL IT WASNT OK. well, we somehow managed to cram up some decent slides (MAYBE BC I HAD ALREADY MADE SOME BUT I WAS TOLD THEY WERE “USELESS”?!?!) which contained the main info and well they learned some stuff. the trick? they have no sense of what tf happened, for example:
(for some context, the proyect im talking abt rn is about how tf the moiseyev dance company, which is a famous russian ballet company, came to the us AND had a positive reception in the middle of the cold war. this happened bc of the lacy-zarubin thing which was smth to yk make some small diplomacy acts for fucking once and it was made with mostly good terms between the us and the urss)
- “the fact like the company was coming felt like a cultural invasion” BITCH?!?!? maybe ur referring to the fact the whole us went fucking ballistic during the red scares BUT THIS NEVER FELT LIKE A “CULTURAL INVASION”. what did this bitch not understand about the fact the moiseyev’s were awfully positive received and got the parasocial (positive) treament from everyone there…
- “the us used jazz as a way of diplomacy during the period where the exchange was active” while this is true, THE WAY HE SAID IT IMPLIED IT WAS ONLY USED THERE. which is not true, the us used jazz as a “heyy other countries we are NOT a bunch of heartless capitalist corporatives we have culture and we’re not racist :D” since waaayyyy longer than 1958 (year where the lacy-zarubin thing went active) so yeah pls inform yourself <3. and it was not only jazz, plenty of different artists participated on the exchange
oh well…at least i got to point out said failures in front of the teachers. a bit of personal satisfaction never comes wrong.
today, it was the last day of presentations. most of the class was left alone until 9am and jst ended up doing nothing, until some teachers came in and my class started to present. me and my group presented after recess, and im happy i managed to speak during most of the presentation, but sadly the teachers did notice the proyect was rushed but we were able to excuse ourselves, though im sure self pitying yourself during the exposition can only improve opinions to a certain point, but at least the teachers do know what we made. well yay is finally over :D, i’ll get my results next week.
