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nothing much aside from the fact i happened to watch 3 shitty films this month ,-;, spoilers for girl hell 1999 (AND PLEASE CHECK THE TRIGGER WARNINGS B4 READING THE REVIEW), the room, os carrinhos: a grande corrida and do revenge

also i will add gifs later as im lazy lol

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huh, i sure love wasting my education. but you prolly know i hate the un model to death lol

for some context, is pretty self explanatory what it is, but we have like multiple commissions (idk the world in english but lets use this for now), which are..programs ig?? there’s 9 commissions i think, each of them having their own countries (yes, the countries might repeat between commissions, but there’s a different delegate for each of them. otherwise i think everyone would avoid being the us delegate lol) or lack thereof (such as the national congress commission or the economics one, where i think everyone represents companies instead of countries) and their own different topics.

you can join this from 7th grade until u graduate, and ive had the blessing/curse of this being my first year (which i needed, since u need to participate at least once to graduate. idk the need but eh), as i didnt sign up on 7th grade because the un model was at the same time i was away for another school thing and on 8th grade i left last minute, as i couldn’t get my grasp on…practically anything ;-;. i signed up for the enviromental commission, i got assigned argentina, which i thought it was ok it seemed like a pretty nothing country for the subject we were managing and anyway is a third world one no one’s giving a fuck.

the issue is. im not argentinian. and argentina manages its water supply (main topic was water shortages) on a VERY WEIRD WAY

looking back, i seriously could’ve saved myself much time if i had jst googled but i didnt know, but i was young and dumb and with a huge block regarding the entirety of un so ofc i didnt to anything! ig ive never taken it truly seriously, which is smth i differ with with most of my classmates. i suppose is bc i never had friends in middle/high school while i still was on elementary. and to make things worse,i was stuck with a VERY important science project in which i was fully locked in, to the point i overworked myself and i abandoned all of my other academic responsibilities. including the un, so yeah i left lol. the 2 days in which the un was done, i simply stayed with the other kids who had skipped it too (we were 20 in total) stuck on a classroom not doing much, which was smth i intended to repeat this year. BUT IT WAS “MANDATORY” this time…though not really, many didnt come by simply jst not paying, but eh. if i need to come once in order to graduate, is better if i do it rn and not on 10th or 11th grade in which shit is going to get worse.

well, so this year i went to the historical commission, as it was ww2 themed and we were seeing it on history on the first semester, so i wouldnt be so lost. i choose to be the philippines delegate bc no one gives a fuck about philippines and i did the bare minimum for my documents and the near-weekly meetings to work on the model.

on wednesday, we had the opening ceremony :D. it was ok, simply speeches from the president of the un and each president of each commission, alongside a music presentation from the school band of questionable quality (though the main singer’s vocals were very good) and another speech from a random ahh lawyer. they also had a food bar which was very good, it had mini chocolate cakes and some mini breads with bacon :3, and im happy to have gotten there quick, bc the food bar opened at the end of the ceremony and 0.005 seconds later there was a huge crowd around it so ;-;. it was very fancy, everyone was dressed very elegantly and we got fancy folders and a…uhhh…card? idk. but they are pretty 2 :3

on thursday, we had our first debate :D. there was a plot twist at the very beginning bc i was suspended bc my presentation letter was awful. i was simply left out for 10 minutes, and thats is pretty much it. then the debate started. ngl, it was very very VERY exciting :D. we covered 1939 to 1942, and surprisingly, we weren’t very focused on yk, the actual war crimes from germany for most of the debate. mostly the debate was stuck bc the british delegate and the us delegate were beefing with the soviet delegate, calling eachother out for hypocrisy bc how dare they condemn the jewish genocide if they are awful on their own countries, and there was given an special focus on the war crimes committed in china by japan (oh boy they cooked the japanese delegate HARD. like on the first 20 minutes of the debate the chinese delegate called him out bc of the naijing massacre and the fucking unit 731. i sat next to him, which is ironic taking into account japan occupied the philippines on 1941, but man was he anxious. specially since the italian delegate was not doing ANYTHING and the german delegate left on the first hour so he barely had help), which makes sense, but most of them didnt even occur at the time, and judging by a conversation the us, chinese and japanese delegates had b4 the debate started, i think it was intentional. ethiopia and romania also had some beef in the middle of the debate, idk why, but there was an awful lot of reminders along the debate to stop fighting and do smth. i waited for pearl harbor to be mentioned, as without it, the japanese occupation of the philippines would have never occurred, and it was pretty much my only excuse to speak, and i jst ended up doing a brief intervention informing everyone of it, and another one later when we were on 1942 to inform everyone the situation was even worse. OH AND NORWAY, even if idk much abt norway’s role on the irl war, it was heavy here; and again jst same a old beef norway explaining to everyone to stop fighting quit bitching my country has actually done smth and then the us exposing some allyship between norway and germany and lets nor forget the temporary scandinavian allyship :D. i cant believe we went through 3 years without announcing some military attack on germany. i must admit, all the delegates who spoke a lot are great public speakers, and their speeches gave the whole thing energy. though i got rlly bored once i fulfilled what i needed to do, and im happy i wasnt the only one who barely spoke :3. we also had 2 food breaks, which were very very good :D. on the first one we had argentinian empanadas and on the 2nd a burger, and both were delicious. finally, i must mention i got ignored a lot lol, which was kinda weird to me as the us has a literal military base on the philippines and also got fucked up by the japanese…but i cant act like the victim, as i barely spoke, even when i might’ve had the chance to (though well, said chances were before japan had even come to the philippines, to it wouldn’t have been appropriate to take them).

today was the second and final day of the debate, frankly, it was far less exciting at the beginning, prolly since i wasnt focused at all. they started the whole nuclear war thing, or smth. THOUGH when i stopped paying attention, a plot twist happened, which was that germany joined the alience of the us and the uk and everyone went to fuck up the soviet union and japan, specially the us. and nearing the end of the first hour, the uk turned leftist :0. and it turned against the us. so we have a uk & soviets vs the rest of the countries (japan wasnt allied with the soviet band, but still everyone hates it), and then for some reason japan went through a redemption arc and allied with them?? idk what happened really i got distracted playing the google doodle island olympics game i want to kms really. so it ended up being a soviets (poland, ethiopia, gay uk, brazil, india and the soviet union) vs pretty much everyone else, and we ended up forming allyships AND organization between eachother (the us one was a organization against totalitarianism, and idk what was the other's) and then we left. idk who won, or if it was supposed to be a winner. then we had the awards ceremony :D, at like 2:30pm. more speeches, a few classmates of mine won awards for their interventions or written documents, we had another music presentation and im kinda sad most people didnt care abt it, as it was very good. AND WE HAD CUPCAKES AT THE END :D

overall, strong 5/10: boring if you do nothing, i wont go next year, but smth nice to experience for once :3

have a nice day y'all and srry for the bible ;-,

i dont think i’ll be able to be very ok this weeks without it :3
for some context, finals and final proyects are here HARD. ive been mostly finaling hard (this week i had the spanish/history test, a history quiz and the dreaded science test) and i suppose ive done well. nothing’s without its disappointments, as i had an awful 5/8 on today’s science test, but eh…i jst hope i did well on the physics part, bc last test i had an awful score and if i dont pass this one i may not pass physics and i cant pass science if i dont pass physics ;-;. im not concerned abt the other subjects, as i got perfects mostly on the midterm test. but i do hope the 3 questions i got wrong weren’t the physics ones, other wise im doomed.

ON THE SUBJECT OF THE FINAL PROYECTS. IM. SERIOUSLY. SO. PISSED. again, i got paired with some useless people, as if it wasnt enough to get paired with an useless girl last trimester (I SERIOUSLY HATE HER SM LIKE ISTG THE OTHER GIRL IN OUR GROUP WAS KILLING HERSELF WITH THE UN MODEL AND I WAS KILLING MYSELF WITH OUR PROYECT. AND WHAT DID SHE DO. NOTHING), i thought it would be better to partner up with some boys who only like me bc im smart and naive bc at least they make me laugh. but they seriously do nothing…ig ill jst designate them as my emotional support partners or smth, and ill make the proposal this weekend, and ig i’ll jst send them a video. i’ll enjoy today to do nothing and i’ll kms tomorrow. no choice ig. i’ll make a video for my useless classmates to explain them what i’ve come up with with the loquendo voice or smth.

i jst need to survive again…and i’ll be free from that until november which is fine for me :3.

i havent done anything else but drawing, and drawing, and browsing through da internet. i made a silly little gay drawing for a contest, which is the one below



ALSO THE NEW ALNST EP…i dont want to talk about it again, but man the animation was beautiful and i totally agree with everyone saying mizi is an unreliable narrator, prolly for a different reason, but it is totally true. ALSO TILL AND LUKA ARE ALIVE. but luka wasnt able to escape…vivimeng stop making my boy suffer pls, though frankly the whole thing about him being alive gives me strong vibes that heperu cloned him, but it still sad nonetheless. also if u know if the series is truly ending rn tell me. the whole thing gives strong “this is ending vibes”, aside from the official announcements from the team (or the recent one by mizi’s va), but pretty much everyone is confused currently. so i’ll be looking for an official announcement by vivinos or qmeng or kang :3, bc if its not ending i'll stop making my drawing tribute.

i hope everyone has a nice week

first look at the lovely drawings i made of my ocs lol. most of these ones are for their art fight profiles :3 (if u want to check tose i have my art fight profile linked in my carrd)








well i hope u like them, most of them were sushed lol ;-:

i havent done much this vacations aside from drawing, and drawing, and drawing. and listeing to music ofc. maybei will watch a movie after posting this, but idk. i think i'll continue with madoka :3

until thrusday, this week was somewhat calm, at least calm for what would be an exam week. we jst had our tests on monday which were...ok. i did have to cheat a bit on the math one and i also helped someone who was cheating but we didnt got caught, and the other one was an ethics test. which was mostly easy, as they were questions along the lines of "maria runs away everytime she has to talk to someone, what behavior pattern is this?". and the rest of the week transcurred calmly. i even had time to make a profile pic for my ocs art fight profile!!! here it is :3



that was until the peace was gone on thursday evening, when we got a fatidic email...that the middle/high school cordinator was fired out of the blue. and he wouldnt be working anymore from that thursday. needless to say, i was shocked. my mother was too, and things only got worse when we knew the elemtary coordinator (who, i must clarify, IS MARRIED TO THE MIDDLE/HIGH SCHOOL COORDINATOR) and 2 high school teahcers (who have been working in the school for ages, and are pretty much ones of the top teachers here. the type you instictively know its influence, and have been hated by every student before graduating yet loved once the students spend 0.00001 seconds at college, and frankly, responsible for much of the schools very appreciated results at the ifecs) were also fired out of the blue that very same day.

needless to say, there was shock and anger everywhre. most parents (including mine) were either angry or concerned, AND OH BOY THE STUDENTS...the class gropuchat was mad as fuck too, and some people were starting to think about protesting or smth, but man everyone was convinced this was the downfall of the school and stuff. i partially agree with it, bc even if those fuckers have been declaring that the school was going to fucking die since the beiginning of the year (bc of frankly, light reasons, such as the change of the entrance hours to 6:45am or the change on the grading system) this is truly fucked up. and weird. bc they were literally fired without fair cause. at least thats what some teachers and a frienc of my mother who works at the school told my mom...which is even weirder. if they were fired bc of some wrongdoing we would've known, specially since im sure a parent would've spoken up about about it and killed the headmistress if they attempted to cover it up, as this has happened before. but here LITERALLY NO ONE KNOWS ANYTHING. today 74384789374 students have asked the teachers and all of them have said they dont know anything and is jst a very mysterious mystery...which is even worse tbh. and we still dont know anything lol.

somehow, classes were very normal the first hours of the day. i had my science test (which was hell, as always, BUT, i have the hunch i may have done better today, as i applied A BRAND NEW SOLVING QUESTIONS STRATEGY, but im still nervous lol), until the class after recess, since some middle/high school kids went to protest at the headmistress office, and everyone was like "OMG WHATS HAPPENING!??!?!" for like 15 minutes, until the teachers forced everyone inside lol. and nothing, still, jst the headmistress telling them they were doing what they considered best and shit like that.

im mostly concerned about the kids who are in the school bc of scholarships bc they have relatives who are teachers, specially a classmate of mine, who's mom is an old teacher (bonus concern points lol) and who knows if she might get fired...LETS NOT SUMMON EVIL GUYS. but yeah my headmistress and the school council have been very silly lately lol

I CALLED WITH POOKIE YESTERDAY :D!!! it was nice to call with them, hear them again…specially after not hearing much abt how they’ve been doing lately, since they have been very depressed lately and dont feel like texting much, which is perfectly understandable. nontheless im still happy abt seeing them, and i hope they were able to at least not dream that night ;-; (ik stupid u cant control dreams BUT ANYWAY). besides they looked so pretty!!!. so yeah, im happy abt it :)

nothing much has happened this week. been working on a maria drawing restlessly and is turning out pretty ok luckily :3, i just have some issues with the colors. ALSO YEULE RELEASED A NEW SONG (dudu btw) AND I RLLY WANT TO HEAR THEIR LATEST ALBUM!!! which will release in…2 weeks ig. also kali ushis released a new album…and ngl it was lowkey dissapointing 2 me, and for the sole reason it was very very monotone, so even if the songs are good by themselves…idk. it gets boring if u hear them together, and they dont have a sound im precisely fond of so…i might give it a re listen though :)

ALSO MADOKA MÁGICA IS STARTING 2 GET GOOD :D. i finished episode 7 last night and ngl things are getting very very interesting rn, which im happy abt as i was struggling to get into the series (prolly mostly because madoka doesnt fully convince as a mc), and i have a feeling it will only get better soon :3!! and i also read the 2nd volume of sailor moon…and i definetly need to read it again. the second volume is better than the first one, but i think bc of my not very good impression of it im struggling to get into the 2nd one, though well naoko takeguchi’s art is STILL STUNNING AF :D.

i hope everyone has a nice week :)

ehh i hope u like them :3, they're awfully underwritten but eh.

so well…a few days ago I decided to join an alnst zine, and therefore I sent a form with some cute drawing and such, but the problem is, I haven’t got ANY news so far. maybe is bc I sent the form 2 days ago and idk the mods are busy but I have checked their tumblr/bsky and nothing that suggests i might have been admitted nor that i wasn’t. should i be concerned??? ty :3

also here is one of the cute little drawings i sent lol

i bought the 1st volume of sailor moon and even if the story itself wasnt very enaging 2 me, naoko takeguchi's art is STUNNING so i decided to redraw some stuff :)



ALSO NEW TEASER FOR NEW PANTY AND STOCKING AND THE SUMMMER HUKARU DIED ANIME :D!!!!!

im tired since i spent half of my day studying. well not really, an eight of that was prolly spent on smth else but anyway. i hope i actually do well on my science test UNLIKE THE LAST TIME. but anyway..i also called with pookie yesterday :D!!! it was beautiful, as always..oh the things i'd give to spent a recess with them...