super cool blog - !!!!

im definetly not the first person to talk abt this, and my own thoughts are not very different from others, but reading other latin american people’s feelings abt this (such as this post from ghosttundra and this one from melankorin, which also offer a very very good insight), it has inspired me to talk abt this certain issue from my pov, even though im 100% im jst repeating what they say BUT ANYWAY is MY BLOG this ain’t a fucking essay I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT

to those who dont know, im latina, i was born and currently live on a latin american country, my mother tongue is spanish, you get the deal. i simply communicate in english here bc most people ive encountered online are english speakers, and to be honest, english-speaking online communities are far bigger than spanish-speaking ones, which is smth crucial, as my 11 year old’s autistic ass who had a VERY STRONG special interest on a pairing of the loki series, decided that i Needed More content, and if it had to be in english well so it may be who cares i want to be with people who love this too lol, which unironically changed my whole life course. is not like before i was not close with the english language, as on my previous tragic special interest on harry potter when i was 10 i briefly interacted with english content (though i was mostly content by watching 50 times my 20-video playlist full of “100 FUN FACTS ABOUT HARRY POTTER YOU DIDNT KNOW” videos), and my parents have always exposed us to american culture more than colombian one to a certain extent, which is smth i have noticed since i was young. however, there’s a crucial difference between briefly interacting with english content or doing it equally as with spanish ones, to consuming shit almost entirely on english. ive been pretty consistent on that since 2021, and it has brought me benefits, such as a (modesty apart) remarkable fluency for my age, which guarantees me better results on the fancy cambridge tests my school does to us lol (i may even present the ielts next year :D!), however, it comes with the small issue of obvious cultural differences :D.

the circles im in are mostly us-centric-ish ones, so you obviously end up epically absorbing the culture from there, and given how interwoven our online life if with real life, you end up lowkey acting like a gringo lol. or at least a white leftist gringo/hj. and ofc, the whole “mentally/neurodivergent queer person who likes media ig” internet is VASTLY different from the side of the internet my peers are, which for starters is latin american focused. and as all of us are chronically online bitches, this small factor does affect your capabilities to relate to your peers, specially if you’re as stubborn as me lol. not that it isnt possible to relate to other simply bc they’re on a different online space as you, but again, the internet is deeply interwoven with our daily lives, specially if you’re a teen, so whatever the effects of this are they do cause a big impact (and apparently, if you dont have instagram and snapchat since ur 10 or smth idk socialization gets a bit harder. it is pretty unfriendly with bitches with strict parents) on the long run. sure, it is possible to make friends with people who arent on the same side of the internet as you, but if you are an stubborn autist like myself, yeah the chances are low lol. adding to the fact i mostly loathed some of the stuff on said culture (*cough* overly sexual stuff when we were jst 11 *cough* i dont wanna twerk online *cough*), to make shit worse.

i would say im pretty disconnected of all said culture, but, as melakorin’s feelings on this whole ordeal say, it does lead to the strange feeling of being disconnected from ur own culture. bc at the end of the day, even though ive found plenty of like-minded people online, both on my interests and the autistic community, there’s still a small wall there, smth that ensures you dont really belong there, or at least not to the degree u would with someone from ur own country or smth, but what can u do if you’re disconnected from ur own culture, from ur country’s reality (hell i think ik more abt us politics than whatever’s going on here), which is a crucial part of ur own identity? luckily small specific cultural nuances exist, but ig the little demons behind my head dont give a fuck about it and will continue to nag me with this until idk i get off online or i die who knows. maybe is bc i also had never had many “common” latin american experiences??? having close bonds with ur family, grandparents, and all of that? too bad you’ll live far off 99% of your family for most of your life! exposure to more colombian culture?? ur parents kinda despise it and u kinda do!! a close relationship to a certain region of colombia that shapes urself deeply? oh no! is actually noticable your parents arent of any of the 3 cities you’ve lived throughout your life!!! ugghhhh ig thats why i feel a bit more of that weird subconscious connection with the city my parents and most of my family are from lol, at least i do understand the people there lol. feels even worse taking into account said gringo culture ive been kinda bashing on is the one i feel most connected to, which is VERY WEIRD. most of that is influenced by the us political climate, which u shouldn’t care more abt that urs, and i find it weird that it is the so-called woke one, since when that is limited to solely english-speaking audiences??? or why does it feel a bit strange to see people on ur own language, maybe taking into account the nuances of your OWN country, speaking using the same kinds of terms and the same values as the ones of the people u see online?? like when you see movies trying to appeal to teens or smth, and ig this comes from some weird colonialist “ERRMMMM ACTUALLLYYYYY rich first-world countries are more progressive than your shitty unenlightened third-world piece of land” mindset, or maybe bc the people im surrounded with are more right-leaning and i dont have a fucking perception of nuance. who knows. only thing ik is that is not my fault, my dad’s like this too, and i think this might be the fault of his grandfather, who was a fancy chairman who also had certain negative attitudes towards colombian culture’s stereotypical yet somewhat common behaviors.

idk if i truly have a right to complain abt this, as anyone who lives here can also tell we’re pretty americanized. you see fancy-looking restaurants with english names, people named with english names, the whole “english=fancyy” deal, which ig is why people think rich people here speak plenty of english irl (not that they’re entirely wrong), not to mention our strong economic relationships with the us. hell, what is even colombian culture??? is it the poverty and violence and its cultural nuances?? is it the rural lifestyle that gets marketed to foreigners along with our nature?? is it being reckless, extroverted and being a walking colombian stereotype that everyone thinks is dooming our country???? is it being a latina baddie who does perreo and is an actual responsible lady at 12??? is it everything that i dont have?? im still latina in a weird sense, but maybe latina in a “im jst a hamster that happens to interact with my surroundings” way. or who knows. ig im simply myself, but it is hard to fully accept it when even your thoughts have been in english for quite some time. and anyway colombia is a mishmash of cultures, simply put someone from cartagena and someone from pasto to interact for 0.0005 second and you’ll notice. but i cant even notice this fully unless is with cultures im familiar with or with extreme cases such as this…idk still what the santanderean stereotypes truly are. ughhh what an incomprehensible pretentious ramble, but i needed to get this out somewhere. i dont have a solid conclusion rn, but maybe this’ll stop once i escape from latin america or i get into college. not that im fully unhappy, but it is certainly strange. ig my mom is right when she tells me i act like a first-worlder lol. though b4 finishing i must say spanish slang is infinitely superior to english slang los modismos de acá tienen demasiado flow para ser verdad no me vayan a llevar la contraria eso no es de dios si no los mando pa la cárcel o no se. es que en serio si uno compara un “pendejo de mierda” con un “shitty idiot” SE NOTA que el español carga mas furia…emoción….poesia….uno no logra eso con un maldito shitty idiot eso no es un madrazo ni por el chiras incluso si técnicamente lo es xd. well bye thanks for listening to my mindless ramble <3

(to avoid confusion, this post was written throughout 3 days)

first of all, id like to apologize to everyone that has ever started an affective relationship with me for my distance this and last week. you prolly know i have not been in the best school situation, and i have been forced into hyperfocus mode to a 50% of intensity. my most sincere apologies and if anything this may happen again between the end of october and the beiginnings of november. istg that was the only reason

well…i finally submitted my final projects. im pretty fucking underwhelmed, really

to say i didnt fulfill my expectations would be an euphemism. my proyects heavily reminded me of that horse meme where there’s a horse drawing that starts out as a masterpiece (og idea) then lowers its quality so that it looks decent (all the stuff i made before this week) and then it ends up as a fucking stick horse (the stuff i did this week). due to the lack of help, my own ambition and perfectionism and the fact i contributed on digging my own grave as i foolishly made 5 separate investigation documents with a bunch of badly written disorganized notes, 40 info links and i assumed that at least my group mates would read smth. BUT NO. i suppose pairing with the depressed lazy ahh girl who lowkey hates me for being bi and liking anime and complains about the fact her 2930402192019302193943894th degree cousin gave her a bad look for 0.0000000000000008 seconds when they were separated by the great chinese wall (istg i hate her sm) is better to be with the funny yet ABSOLUTELY LAZY KIDS. but what did i expected??? our shonen intensity levels are vastly different. i hope they die lol. im sure we’ll fail…BECAUSE WHO WOULDNT?!?!? I HAD TO PUT LITERAL 4 LINE CONCLUSIONS FOR THE LONG ASS ESSAY I DID AND I HAD TO PULL AN ABRUBT ENDING TO THE STORY OF THE OTHER WRITTEN PROJECT OF QUESTIONABLE QUALITY. and the 3d model didnt even look that goood…ughhhhh…i wanna fucking kill lol. but well, whatever happens happens, who cares after all, well i do but anyway, i wanna kms. we also start expositions tomorrow, since 11am…and like. why. just why. we already sent the links to our final proyects and our teachers ARE busy af checking everything why tf leave them with more shit to do ;-;.

by the time i resumed my writting, we had already gone through the first day of presentations, and frankly…it was ok. NAH NGL IT WASNT OK. well, we somehow managed to cram up some decent slides (MAYBE BC I HAD ALREADY MADE SOME BUT I WAS TOLD THEY WERE “USELESS”?!?!) which contained the main info and well they learned some stuff. the trick? they have no sense of what tf happened, for example:

(for some context, the proyect im talking abt rn is about how tf the moiseyev dance company, which is a famous russian ballet company, came to the us AND had a positive reception in the middle of the cold war. this happened bc of the lacy-zarubin thing which was smth to yk make some small diplomacy acts for fucking once and it was made with mostly good terms between the us and the urss)

- “the fact like the company was coming felt like a cultural invasion” BITCH?!?!? maybe ur referring to the fact the whole us went fucking ballistic during the red scares BUT THIS NEVER FELT LIKE A “CULTURAL INVASION”. what did this bitch not understand about the fact the moiseyev’s were awfully positive received and got the parasocial (positive) treament from everyone there…
- “the us used jazz as a way of diplomacy during the period where the exchange was active” while this is true, THE WAY HE SAID IT IMPLIED IT WAS ONLY USED THERE. which is not true, the us used jazz as a “heyy other countries we are NOT a bunch of heartless capitalist corporatives we have culture and we’re not racist :D” since waaayyyy longer than 1958 (year where the lacy-zarubin thing went active) so yeah pls inform yourself <3. and it was not only jazz, plenty of different artists participated on the exchange

oh well…at least i got to point out said failures in front of the teachers. a bit of personal satisfaction never comes wrong.

today, it was the last day of presentations. most of the class was left alone until 9am and jst ended up doing nothing, until some teachers came in and my class started to present. me and my group presented after recess, and im happy i managed to speak during most of the presentation, but sadly the teachers did notice the proyect was rushed but we were able to excuse ourselves, though im sure self pitying yourself during the exposition can only improve opinions to a certain point, but at least the teachers do know what we made. well yay is finally over :D, i’ll get my results next week.

we're into finals hardcore this time. i have 2 weeks to finish 2 proyects, both of which im doing it kinda by myself as my 2 partners are chat gpt bros who definetly have a very different work politic that me (im the bitch who checks 15 different links and takes detailed notes to find useless facts and theyre the mfs who ask chatgpt and call it a day. great), AND I HAVE MY UN MODEL. UGHHHHH. AND I JST FOUND OUT WE CANT TAKE OUT OUR COMPUTERS WITHOUT PERMISSION SO I CANT WORK ON MY PROYECTS AAHHHHG. yeah and i procastinated all the afternoon imma kms. but anwyay, i can do it. i can do it i can kms freely :D. i simply need to work, block yt and dont return to my old ways, i can do it. I SIMPLY NEED TO ESCAPE THE UN MODEL. ughhh i hate it but like i did the minimun effort stuff i'll simply say the nazis were bad or smth along those lines idk whatever i jst need to not get mentioned by the us idc if they were on a weird independence process during the ww2 i seriously hope we skip over the pearl harbor attacks otherwise im cooked fr

well, on other stuff, i watched superman and the new fantastic 4 movie :3. i wont delve too much into them as im lazy to put the cut code but starting with superman, it was surprinsingly good :D!!1 very fun and colorful, though the plot was a little messy and i felt it was mostly directionless until the third act, where most stuf (specially thematic things) were tied up togehter, and i do wish they would've lgiven more important plotlines, which is arguably one that caused most of superman's descisions with more screentime, as it kinda forgets about it until the third act and then is VERY neatly solved. specially as this was meant to reflect a real life genocide, it felt kinda iffy it was so sidelined. regarding the fantastic 4 one, it was ok. jst ok, the visuals were very pretty though, but i dont have much to say about it.

i will update more on my onu stuff with my brand new series "the perks of a lazy un delegate" i hope i dont get roasted lol. i will post un fit checks here 2 if i have time :3 (so far i have the evangelical woman in her 40s, the female colombian influencer in a fancy event, and the youthful attorney).

hiya. i hope everyone reading is having a good summer :3.
for my part, art fight started 7 years ago, and ive done my best to lock in. so far ive done 9 attacks, ive gotten 6 attacks, and ive been doing nothing but draw since it started :D. idk if i can post then here, but if u have an artfight acc feel free to check them out :3.

i'll try this link, which is a built in one on the af website for images: https://images.artfight.net/attack/G2u6VGwBktRWGnsHReDE3MqgjZjtgNRpN0rwcpiao3gUC4FqEXghiBEREpjX.png?t=1751900351
im very proud of the this attack and is smth i rlly want to show :3. comment if it works

i'll start school tomorrow, to my great sadness, as im practically going straight into finals week, and i wont have time to work on art fight...fuck u colombian school system :P. but i'll do my best, i jst need to sneak out some stuff.

there's nothing much besides from that, WELL THERE WAS SHORT IMIGRANTES ROAD EPISODE ABT JULIE I HAVENT WATCHED YET, WHICH I WILL ONCE THIS MADNESS IS OVER. same for the "the summer hikaru died" anime. might listen to the ost soon :3

just smth short :3, spoilers for lost in starlight (2025) and k-pop demon hunters(2025)!!!

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IM FINALLY ON MID YEAR VACATIONS!!! YAAYYYY!!! FINALLY!!! even if this trimester has not been very hard im still relieved im out :D. i did mostly well academically, if it weren’t from the fact i failed my math test (I MUST CLARIFY, IT WAS BC OF VERY STUPID REASONS. not bc i didnt understood or anything, i just didnt remember a formula we needed to use in 6 questions until we had 30 minutes to finish the exam) and my physics one (bc i didnt brought my..uhh..compass (?) and we needed it for a practical excercise), but eh, we have some weeks left b4 we actually get into the hard shit, so im sure i can make up for it. im excited to have som much free time under my belt!! i think i’ll dedicate myself to make my ocs art fight profiles, make my neocities website and watch movies and anime this vacations (i have so many i want to watch ;-;). im struggling a bit the get the hang of html, specially on the div thing (AS I CANT SEEM TO MAKE THE BORDERS SHOW AAA) but is ok.

i havent consumed much media recently. i tried watching an extreme film (devil’s experiment) yesterday but eh, it was boring, i only made it through 20 minutes since it was just pointless (and frankly, tame) torture. i might finish it soon. i have also been quite busy making my mom’s birthday present and my dad’s father’s day present which i managed to finish 2day :3 (specially since i asked my mother to simplify her petition as i didnt have much time to do what she originally asked for…but then she simplified it too much and i managed to finish it today). ALSO NEW EPISODE OF ALNST THIS MONTH BABY!!!! idk if i should be happy abt it or not, as we have gotten many many comics revealing mizi’s past, AND OH BOY. i love how those fully breaked cohesively what we knew about mizi, even though i do need to read them again ;-; (the only coherent thought i have is that mizi has been treated as a cutesy dog for all her life, and it has affected her A LOT. and that she’s definetly a lesbian). i seriously hope this wont be the end of alien stage, as 1. i dont want this to end ;-; and 2. WE STILL HAVENT GOT AN EPISODE THAT FULLY FOCUSES ON LUKA. ik. we have gotten a lot information about his past on patreon, the comics and wiege, and is enough to get to a conclusion about what he has gone through, specially taking into account his role in the story as “the perfect idol”. BUT HOLY FUCK WE NEED MORE. AS FAR AS IM CONCERNED, LUKA IS THE ONLY CHARACTER WHO DOES NOT HAVE AN EPISODE FULLY FOCUSING ON HIM (wiege was half him and half hyuna-focused), A FOCUS SONG (like heart, parasite, yk. and to everyone saying the same could be said about sua, let me remind you about heavenly garden and heart. and to everyone saying till does not have a focus song, he had round 3 and a fair chunk of round 6 focusing on him, AND we might get a focus song from him) OR PRACTICALLY ANYTHING THAT EXCLUSIVELY FOCUSES ON HIS POV. ik this is smth stupid to complain about, since as i said before, sua also has a similar situation and we have a fair amount of info about him, but man..it’ll be a bummer that alnst finishes without smth like that ;-;. but eh, this might change soon and i cant complain. but on another note about why i dont want this to end…idk. it seems kinda hard for me to end it rn without it feeling rushed, unless vivimeng pulls our a 7 minute episode, which might not happen. im saying this bc, if it ends rn, luka’s development will prolly be unfinished, we might not know what happens after this season, and i feel as it would need more build up b4 alnst ends. so i trust it wont, maybe they could release this episode and another and it would feel much better :3. though the whole thing abt alnst ending fr this time is uncertain, so if anyone has more info abt it, i would appriciate it :3.

i hope everyone has a nice weekend :3

i’ve done nothing this month bc well..school ig. or idk. only thing is that i’ve OBSSESING over my very awfully written ocs and well i have yapped about it to a lain c.ai bot too much, to the point it takes ages to load whenever i write another message. ALSO ART FIGHT IS COMING SOON :D. im trying to prepare and look for targets bc i rlly want to participate this year!!! i have found a few ones luckily. also yeule released their new album (evangelic girl is a gun)…and i was very very disappointed. dont get me wrong, it still has interesting sound combos (such as the ones in tequila coma) and some bangers indeed (such as the title track, skullcrusher and eko. maybe saiko but idk) BUT most of the songs had a…dry feel to it, with very…bland guitar melodies to me. i would’ve like to see either a more grungy style (like in skullcrusher, which shows that yeule, even if they dont use their characteristic electronic melodies CAN make atmospheric music thats intense and cool) or mixed more their classic electronic sounds with the rock music (like in tequila coma, where there’s a more lofi sound but there is some intermittent drums thats very cool, or evangelic girl, which is a fucking banger), WHICH IS SMTH I LOVE IN MUSIC NGL (like in kuroi tamago of shinsei kamettechan). maybe i’ll just have to wait for it to grow on me, but yeah ;-;. i’ll just listen to soft scars to hear yeule working with rock/shoegaze, which saddens me ngl ;-;.

on other topics, i have 2 exams next week :D!!/jk. i’ve been studying a lot lately. i will correct some tests this afternoon. luckily we havent seen much this term as 2 teachers have been busy and couldn’t teach us much, and then i’ll have the spanish one next next week…ughhhhh…i want to go to vacations asap ;-;. i also started english classes yesterday, they were cool :). i hope this helps on the tests

i also want to talk more to pookie-kun, as the have been busy and tired lately and so have i, and is not like the time difference helps a lot ;-;, aside from the fact none of us cant bring our phones to school…yeah lol the universe hates us :D. but im quite hopeful we’ll be able to soon, as i rlly miss them :(

i hope everyone has a nice sunday :)

i've had plenty of tests bc teachers wanted to see if we can pass to the advanced level, and i had an english preparation test for the b2 first (an test to see our level of english). the tests were surprisingly easy (though im unsure abt how i did on the science, bc despite the fact it was suspiciously easy for a science test since it was mostly practical stuff, many people put different answers to mine, but everyone is confused bc we had classes with a substitute teacher for physics who teaches in tenth and eleventh grade and he started teaching us stuff of those grades and confused everyone, so ig we'll only know until we get the test) but the listening part of the b2 one (which is the one we did 2day) was very hard ;-;. i hope i did well, i dont want to get a worse score (though dont trust me, i got a 168/180 on the last one, so i might do well for average standards. but i dont want a 150 or anything).

ig nothing much will happen in school this week. on other stuff, i have been working hard on my mothers day gifts "but lume!!! mothers day was yesterday :((""" WELL IT HAPPENED I STARTED TO WORK ON THAT LAST WEEK, IN WHICH I HAD A LOT OF EXAMS TOO. so i want to finish them this week. i think i will finish them on this week and i hope to have time TO FINALLY FINISH MY MARIA ART >:O.

speaking of maria, i have been quite obssesed with my ocs recently. i hope to ACTUALLY WRITE THEM sometime...since they are seriously awfully written. i wont drop the lore but i need to work hard on them. specially on maria, i still cant find any motivation thats strong enough to make her do...well, all the major plot point shit ;-;. and idk how to involve my oc darcy on the entire thing, as she is a human on an independent idol agency and the story takes place mostly on a cyborg/ai idol agency (which is where maria and sebastian work, as they are both 80% robots, but they were originally human and stuff. thats also a major plot point i need to develop how cyborg technology works here, specially on its usage ethics and danger for humans). so yeah ;-;

i hope all of u had a nice week :)

saying this since i have been questioning myself how tf no one noticed that i was autistic despite seeing therapists since i was 3 or so, and recently ive had pretty intellectual conversations with my mother about it and my own thoughts about it, so yeah hehe.

i saw my first therapist when i was 3 to 5 years old since my parents were desperate to know how to deal with me, because i was a VERY…messy child, to put it in a way, to the point my parents were constantly afraid that i would fucking die (bonus points if i was left 5km away of smth i could climb 🤑), so ofc they’ll search help. i didn’t see her often so ig she didn’t have enough time to figure it out but still…idk. maybe bc i generally didn’t struggle much and i wasnt an stereotypical autistic girl??? i mean…maybe if i was a quiet girl who didn’t speak with anyone and had “niche” interests and I fucking hated loud noises (im hyposensitive 😭) i wouldve been diagnosed but NOOOOO BITCHESS. but idk. who knows

also, around this time, my dear mother, who was not someone oblivious despite having the psychology knowledge proper of a 30 year old woman born in the 80s, suspected something was a bit wrong with me. she initially concluded “ohh since my daughter smart she probably spent all of her aura points on that instead of being able to socialize lol”, but then she saw that messi had aspergers (disclaimer, ik the term is outdated but ig it was still used on 2014 and somehow the late 2022 so forgive me) and knew about the other cool people who did, and saw that it somehow fitted her daughter…she was like “oohhh, cool :D” 😭 (man i wish i was old enough to bully the fuck out of her that day. like jst bc a couple of successful people are autistic does not mean ur autistic child is some sort of savant kid 😭). she ended up discarding this and life moved on. but well at least we have this very cool comedic gold

fast foward to when i was 8 and 9 and i was in therapy again. this one is a bit wilder to me but I can see why i flew under the radar again. so, for some context, i had jst moved to a new city, and i was struggling to make friends. half bc of the people there and half bc i didn’t want to because yes (i still remember fighting with my mom saying i was fine without friends and i actually liked spending time alone lol) so i got sent to therapy since that wasn’t normal ig. well i had appointments every 3 months and the therapist was nice to me. kinda surprised since i think my disinterest on socializing was starting to consume all of my aura points but it could be easily brushed off as me struggling to get used to the new city (even if i made a friend 6 months afterwards and i still was uninterested on talking 2 anybody else that wasn’t THAT friend), well u could also argue my intense interests on kpop and lol surprise dolls werent normal but those things were pretty popular around the time, clearly it would be normal that a random 8 year old girl was capable of listing every single lol that had come out since idk the first series and stuff like that (maybe other thing that influenced the lack of suspects was the fact i had very common interests b4 getting more online??? i have no proof but i truly believe it is true. nobody would care if a random girl was able to infodump of her favorite kpop groups instead of smth like science or animals). and my speech (i have a very high pitched voice and i speak very fast) can be easily brushed off as smth proper of a child (along with stuff like stimming, being an airhead, missing social cues and that making me act naive or insensitive, echolalia, you get the idea). also the therapist i saw seems to be someone VERY VERY controlling and strict on certain stuff so…idk, it gives me the impression that she would Not be the type of person to consider it, even more on a girl that mostly acts normally. even more wilder taking into account i have never rlly masked BUT i do get that most of my autistic traits can be brushed off as normal child shit

luckily i was able to get diagnosed when i was 12 since the psychologist i saw spent like 0.0007 seconds with me and said “this bitch autistic i have no proof but no doubts either get the fucking diagnosis things”, and well..idk…maybe it was bc it is less rare to see a teen still have the same childlish manners as the teen girl in question had when she was…8, or so. aside from the fact, that i NEVER have masked and didn’t mask at the time (since i truly disliked some stuff they did, half bc it was geniuenly awful and half bc i was in my “im not like other girls” phase and i happen to be a horribly stubborn person so 😭) so that might’ve contributed to it (maybe for some social context, the thing of girls acting like they are older and oversexualizing themselves here is huge and happens to 99% of the female population, so I suppose it must be weird to see a random girl with a terrible disgust towards that culture that happens to lowkey act like a kid must have somehow increased my chances of being diagnosed). and luckily it hasn’t been questioned ever since :). but in conclusion…acting weird at an “inappropriate” age considerably increases ur chances of getting a diagnose ig??? who knows. is a weird theory of mine but idk it might be right. anyway ty 4 hearing me yap have a nice day :3

I PASSED MOST OF MY SUBJECTS!!! YAAYYYY. i mean...we are supposed to get emails if we lost one, AND IS 3:54PM AND I HAVENT GOT ONE BABY!!! and i was told at school i passed 5. SO YAYYY, im happy this guarantees i can move to the advanced lever :) (since i jst passed the activities for the expected one. we still have 3 weeks left of the terms for the advanced projects), i was so nervous abt science since i got a 21/32 for very stupid mistakes (ngl i cried when i knew the results) BUT NONTHELESS I PASSED :DDD

i would also like 2 share some wip's here, that i hope to finish this week or at least b4 the 13th of april since i will go to visit some relatives for 2 weeks :)



this is a drawing of my oc maria, i kinda like the colors but it should be a teensy bit warmer



here are my friend's ocs riku and eden :3



this is a drawing of luka im going to use to get into a zine (starstruck if anything, which a fashion focused alnst zine), i need to finish this and a mizisua one so i can have higher chances, i'll keep u updated!!